I realized that i had been shaping my life around my boyfriend. And I think that I need to act as though he does not exsist just do my own life. Go to yoga classes, go to my job, do my school work, clean my room and car, get ready for my school coming up soon in January and see Virginie. Then just slowly start standing on my own two feet again. Eventually let go and then in a long while find another man worthy of my love if that happens if he doesnt become that man.