The things David said yesterday were idiotic! He said things that weren't even true or they weren't true to the situation. He is such an idiot. I was always unsure but now I am certain that he is the wrong person for me. He is so selfish. He never sees beyond his own needs like a sociopath or a child. In Child Development they say that children develop faculties of percieving others beyond themselves at a certain stage. He has not got there yet. He is an asshole. He is so selfish. Stubborn. Idiotic. he says things and does not follow through them. He doesnt help my situation. He acts like I am a slave to him and that my life doesnt matter as much as his. it's true I do deserve better. someone who is socially evolved. Someone who empathizes and understands others but also has boundaries. Someone who actually thinks beyond himself even to the world. How did I end up so wrong. I met him when I was in a bad state and he made me feel better because he was warm and nice. But thats not enough to live a life with. He is wrong for me. He is terrible. He is awful. I hate him. I hate my life. My room is a complete mess and I can't seem to overcome the inability to clean it. I think in a way I use it as my protection from the outside. I don't want the energy to flow from my parents to my room it's like a buffer.